The Line

The Line
Originally uploaded by Kaitlin Smith.

By the way, I went to Anime North last Saturday. It made me an official nerd because I attended a convention and had a ton of fun. I didn't dress up, but ooooh, there are plans to next year. Heheheh.

I don't know what to do.

I'm good at crafts, not science.

So now what?

Found

I had heard about a book called Found, and discovered that it also has a website. People find and collect notes from the ground, trash, hidden away, etc. and send in these scraps of paper. Some of them are amazing. Some are sad. Cute, funny, scary... but they're all just so interesting. People are interesting.

Here are some of them that I looked at and liked:
Hangman
Jasper
Were we really so bad together?
Help my brother
I love
Like birds flying
It sounds too much like me.

I find things like this and PostSecret absolutely fascinating. People are fascinating. Take a look at both, everyone can appriciate this kind of thing.

Helpless

I look up to him.

When he says that he gives up, my world falls apart.

I rely on him.

I don't know what to do.

Shopping

After two days of looking with my mom, I finally found my prom dress. It's yellow and the skirt part is big and puffy, and I love it. I love it so much that I bought it, even though the zipper doesn't do up. My mom is calling someone she knows to alter the back so that it ties rather than zips, because it feels fine otherwise.

I found the dress right before we had to go home and pick up Erik from volenteering, so I didn't have time to get shoes or a necklace or anything like that. I'm hoping that someone still needs to do that so I can leave my mom alone now. She hates shopping. :)

Changing a Light Bulb

I really hate how often I hear these "How many x's does it take to screw in a light bulb?" only to be disappointed by some cheesey pun.

I don't care that it takes two ninja to screw in a light bulb; I especially don't care that the trick is getting them inside.

Likewise, I certainly did not need to know that it takes one person from Treant to screw in a light bulb and two more to defend its sexual orientation. (Thank you, post-secondary educational competition, for that lovely and quite tasteful anecdote.)

I think these jokes have so much potential that's just wasted on lame attempts to mock groups of people. Am I the only one that realizes the immense power that we have?

Steve: Hey, Jim, how many E. Coli bacteria, such as those that brought about the Walkerton epidemic, does it take to screw in a light bulb?
Jim: Gee, Steve, that's a tough one.
Steve: The answer is that it doesn't matter because if they are allowed to fester and grow in our filth, infecting our resources, their numbers will astranomical. Given infinite resources, one E.Coli cell could replicate enough times in 24 hours to cover the Earth to a depth of 1 metre.
Jim: ...Oh, wow. That's really frightening. I guess I better take this lesson to heart and realize what a precious commodity clean water is. Thanks, Steve - you really opened my eyes.

See what I mean? We have a tool to raise awareness, and not just about lesbians.

Here we go again?

I'm bad with this getting in shape thing.

I've written down new goals, all of them obtainable and possible. ...Well, they're basically the same as always, but I wrote them down again. I really want to do this, and I really should do this. It's good for me. And I want to look good in my prom dress. And my bathing suit. And fit back into my clothes...

Grr, why can't I stick to it?

Other than that little thing, I'm sick. I woke up with a bit of a sore throat, and I got worse through the day. By last period, I started to feel tired and generally not well. Good thing it was my spare. Julie took me home a little early. I crashed on the couch and have been deteriorating since. I haven't feel like this in a while, and it sucks. I really don't want to miss school, because it's so hard to catch up again... especially if you're having trouble when you're there already.

Bleh. Who passed on this cold-thing to me anyway? I can't think of anyone who is sick right now. Hmm.

Doomed...

I won't survive in university.

Not only do I not understand anything that has to do with my "future career" (but that is going to have to change, I just don't know to what), but the stress will eat me alive.

I'm getting incedibly stressed over 6 physics questions. What am I supposed to do?

Bleh.

I'm a little upset that my last post's picture didn't show up. I'm not sure why it didn't work through Flickr... maybe a setting is wrong or something? I can't figure it out. Hmm.

Well, the end of this week was awful for eating right and getting exercise, and I was surprised when I randomly jumped on the scale on Friday... it went down. But then I jumped on it again a few minutes ago and it wasn't so good anymore.

There really isn't an excuse for it. At my dad's there's tons of junk there, and not much good stuff, so it's a little unavoidable. And I'm lazy there. I don't really believe that you can gain a few pounds over a day and a half, and that if I were to weigh myself again tomorrow, it'd go down again.

Basically, I'm not good with motivating myself to sticking with it. I can do it for a few days, but then it falls apart. I eat good things, but too much of it, and maybe I don't move enough.

So I'm trying to find new motivation. I think I'll hang bathing suit up somewhere visable in my room (I was having trouble actually remembering to make myself a schedual for food to help out, and hanging the papers next to my bed helped immensely), and think about prom a lot. Right now I just want to lose weight because, well, I'm just at the overweight mark for my height, and I don't want to be. But if I keep my health in mind and then remind myself that I want to look great for prom and the summer, maybe it'll improve?

The Outing

Us
Originally uploaded by Kaitlin Smith.

Today I got to take the car out by myself for the first time. (Hurray for automatic rentals! I never want the Civic to come back.) Steve and I went out for dinner, then hung around Fort Erie, Thunder Bay beach, and my house. It was a really, really good day.

Having the car to myself was awsome. That kind of freedom is really nice to have.

Meh.

Yesterday was incredibly stressful. I had a ton of trouble getting my chemistry lab started, and I spent nearly two hours trying to figure out a question and a half on the physics review. I need to do something about the stress I experience, because a lot of the time it isn't nessisary when I look back at the situation. It gets in the way of productivity. On the bright side, the eating right thing went well.

Today I was so disappointed by my chemistry test that I got back. I thought I studied really hard. I tried my very best to do well on that test. I made a great review sheet. Yet... I ended up with a 68%. For the amount of time that I spent trying to understand it all, that's not what I diserve. I want a rewrite, but I know that it'll never happen.

I'm terrified of the physics test tomorrow. I just can't seem to wrap my head around that unit... it doesn't make sense to me. Once I feel like I finally understand something, a new concept shows up and completly thorws off what I thought I understood. Last night I kept telling myself that it'll be okay and I just need to work hard. I'm hoping that it's true.

Eating well is going well today, too. I ate a good breakfast and a good lunch. I really want to eat something now, though. It's just out of habit, and I'm not actually hungry. The after school snack - curse you! I'll make it, though.