October 17, 2006

Weeded Out

I just got my physics midterm back - 20%. The class average was 51%. So even though it wasn't a great exam for everyone... I'm not even near the average.

I can't seem to find a mark for chemistry. They have the solutions on the site, but I'd like my actual mark. I don't know if it's just me that can't find it or what. But I know I failed that too, because it went the exact same way as physics. They were both multiple choice, and none of my calculations matched any of the choices. Guessing can't get you a 50%, unfortunately.

So, I've been weeded out. I really like my astronomy class. It's something that I think I'd really love to do for work, but it just doesn't look like I can do it. I'm setting up appointments to change my major to computer science. I don't know what exactly in computer science yet... I could end up being a software engineer. Or maybe I'll get weeded out of that, too. I have research to do on that. I feel like I'm just giving up, and I don't want it to seem that way. I want it to seem like this just isn't for me... but I feel like astronomy is for me... but I can't do the things that astronomy requires...

I didn't feel like going to my math tutorial today because I haven't had time to even start the practice questions for the test next week. I forgot that we get our tests back in it today... crap. Maybe my TA would e-mail me my mark or something. I probably should've just gone.

I have an astronomy midterm tonight. I was feeling good about it, but now with the way that my midterms have been going... I don't know.

I want to pass the second midterms and the exams. This means double to work. Which requires a time machine. How the hell are you supposed to be able to do this? My mom told me that you pretty much can't, so I can't figure this out at all. I really am trying. I'm depressed and I want to sleep. I hate school.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Don't think that just because you can't do chemistry or physics that Astronomy isn't for you. You wouldn't believe how many people actually drop out of university (I think it is around 65%) and still get into what they love. What's even more surprising is the number of people that take something in university that has nothing at all to do with what they do for a living. What's my point?
A)University is bullshit, the majority of what you learn, you don't use, and for the most part, it is a money grab
B)You will never go wrong doing what you love, even if you drop out, that doesn't mean you can't be an Astronomer
There is always a way to do what you love, no matter what! Just think outside the box, don't buy into societies bullshit that you have waste four years of your life listing to people that in the big picture, don't know more than what you could learn on the internet. Besides, computer science is better anyway, LAWL!